visionary act

lets money work for you

2006-08-27T19:37:00.000+08:00

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and

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lets money work for us.....

2006-06-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

i whispered to my heart.

"how much amount of love i could able to give her for my entire life?"

i'm not sure, actually. it can't be put in numbers. and it can't be measure in any scales. bcs
it seems that everytime i try to measure the weight, it never give even a pinhole of gratification.

but for sure i will prove one of them on this coming Saturday. precisely. no doubt.

A Guy Who Float Like A Fucking Homo

2006-06-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

you son of a bitch!

Yeah, hell with your super dedicated ethics. No doubt. You just know how to lick the boss ass while most of the time i knew you just know how to talk cock!

And one more.

For sure, you are so fucking weirdo. People saying. When you run, its more like floating just like a fucking homo! I agree. Bcs you are so fucking hopeless.

I bet you never watched porno. I bet you think you are so fucking virtuous. No. Absolutely NOT! Please take my opinion seriously. You are not fucking virtuous, idiot! You are just a looser. You are totally vile, bitch. Despicable. The worst on earth.

That's the problem with all the bosses nowdays. Easily attracted to anyone who willing to lick their ass.

Dammit.

Encik Zuraimi

2006-04-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

Setahu saya, saya belum pernah menulis sebarang cerita tentang pekerjaan baru saya di dalam blog yang low-profile ini. Saya bekerja di Jabatan Perdana Menteri di mana office saya agak pelik kerana mempunyai banyak kubah2 berwarna hijau di samping laluan-laluan yang amat mengelirukan terutama kepada pelawat2 yang baru pertama kali memasuki Bangunan Perdana Putra ini. Di samping itu, saya juga tidak pernah terfikir sebelum ini yang satu hari nanti, rupanya office saya terletak hanya di tingkat bawah office Perdana Menteri kita.

Setakat ini, saya belum lagi diberikan tugas2 yang spesifik memandangkan saya belum lagi mengikuti kursus Diploma Pentadbiran Awam. Saya banyak melakukan kerja2 yang tidak pernah saya lakukan sebelum ini terutamanya menulis kertas kerja yang kadangkala memeningkan kepala saya. Namun yang demikian, Timbalan Pengarah saya yang cantik dan baik hati bernama Cik Fairul Azida selalu menasihatkan saya. "Awak kena banyak membaca supaya awak boleh tulis kertas kerja yang baik. Kertas kerja awak baik, tapi banyak benda yang perlu diperbaiki." Selain itu, perkara yang saya selalu lakukan adalah menghadiri meeting di sana dan di sini. Ada meeting yang dihadiri oleh Dato', Datin, CEO, MD, Chairman, En/Cik (biase gile), Ketua Pengarah, Pengarah, Ketua Setiausaha Kementerian, balaci, driver, pegawai am rendah dan sebagainya. Kadang kala ia membuatkan kepala saya menjadi letih dan semakin lama tidak dapat berfungsi dengan baik.

Saya tidak mempunyai banyak kenalan rapat di Bangunan Perdana Putra ini. Namun saya berasa sangat berbesar hati kerana mempunyai sejumlah kecil kawan baik yang sememangnya baik dengan saya. Nama-nama mereka adalah Hani, Nurul, Syurina, Amalina dan Sarah. Mereka memang best dan kelakar. Kami suka bergelak ketawa dan melakukan perkara-perkara bodoh yang jarang2 dilakukan oleh penghuni Bangunan Perdana Putra ini. Walaupun saya seorang sahaja lelaki yang tinggal di HQ ini (kawan-kawan yang lain semua ditempatkan di state), namun mereka tidak pernah meninggalkan saya. "mie, kitorang tunggu kat kafe, breakfast","Mie, turun bawah kitorang tunggu ko lunch","Mie, kang ada makan free, kitorang tunggu kat Dewan Persidangan","Mie, kitorang nak lepak kat Alamanda, ko nak ikut tak","Mie, kang kitorang datang support ko baca doa" dan sebagainya. Walaupun sekali-sekala saya dibuli, namun saya tetap berasa seronok kerana mereka sering membantu saya ketika susah dan senang.

Kadangkala saya berasa bosan di pejabat yang cantik ini. Stone kata, kursus DPA sangat menyeronokkan. Ini membuatkan hati saya melonjak-lonjak dan tidak sabar menantikan hari yang sangat menyeronokkan itu. Saya ingin menambah sebanyak mungkin kenalan sepanjang kursus itu supaya kelak saya tidak berasa bosan bekerja di pejabat yang cantik ini.

Kill the Melodramatic mood..IDIOT!!!!

2006-04-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

lately..just can't help myself from the low-down feeling..depressed..gloomy..puzzling..tensed..like the whole world annoyed me so much..too many things to think..too many things to answer..too many things to worry..too many things to argue..too many things to disagree..too many things to forgive..too many things to ask for forgiveness..too many things make me sad..too many things make me wondering...TOO MANY FUCKING SHITTY THINGS laughing..surrounding..giggling..striking..FUCK THE HELL OF YOU OUT OF MY MIND !!!!

...but at least i could never stop thanking GOD for blessing me with the firm believe of trust, firm believe of love and firm missing feeling of someone that i truely deeply in love... at this very moment..just wish that GOD is always here with me..giving me strength..so that at the end of the day..i will not disrupt everything..AMIN..

i hate my brain..sometimes it works to much!!!!

2006-02-13T15:46:00.000+08:00

just thinking of a lot of things...

things that i should speak..
things that i should just being quite..
things that i wanna hold...
things that i intend to give away..
things that i love to see..
things that i love to ignore..
things that i precisely wanna hear..
things that i pretend to hear..
things that i really hope..
things that i ready to let go..
things that teach myself of limitations..
things that make me feel responsible..
things that make me feel guilty..
things that i need to remind twice..
things that i feel fed up to keep reminding..

its just a holistic thinking..which some people might find it totally irrelevant and ridiculous...its up to you guys..people who really know me..will understand why those things being a very important things to me..

ReBirth...

2006-01-01T11:02:00.000+08:00

it had been 28 days without penning anything in my modest blog. it has been a massive happiness surrounded my daily life lately. having someone great and you most admire and love completed the so-called "life is always beautiful", nevertherless, the whole things of it make me more serious bout what the real mountain of challenge ahead of me demanding the maturity of vision and the passion in achieving the "goal of life", which to be exact..

i've just coming back from 10 days induction programme, called as "PTD Unggul", located at Intan Kluang. seriously, it is another new interesting chapter of my life..since for almost 25 years prior to be apart of PTD officer, there were not even a particle of visionary thought bout contributing something great to the country.."Berkhidmat Untuk Negara"..cheh..sounds to GOMEN, rite..but here i am..PTD officer in Implementation Coordination Unit (ICU) under Prime Minister Department (JPM)..wish me luck..me myself always praying that there will be something hidden great things just for me, sooner or later, to discover. while i'm sure, there will times where one by one of friends take turn to bypass me in terms of financial achievement.. just hoping that god give me strength to overcome the overwhelming challenge..

everything change too sudden.."REBIRTH"..and i never stop thanking god for blessing me with a gigantic blissful new chapter of my life ahead of more interesting upcoming year..

A TRIBUTE TO THE LEGENDARY "BEST"

2005-11-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

i was a bit furious when i read the news written in the sun-uk version (which apparently happen to be my favourite english primiership sensation up-to-date news..) informed that there were few section of crowds..happened to be the bloody "You'll Never Win Anything" instead of "You'll Never Walk Alone" unpleasant supporters who failed to show some respects during the "one minute silence"..as an emblematic last tribute to the great legendary footballer..the late George Best..

The disgrace KOP fans showed the lack of moral fiber during the recent match against Manchester City at the City of Manchester Stadium..

the title of the report written as.."KOP Fans Snub Best Tribute"..."Referee Alan Wiley cut short the tribute at the City of Manchester Stadium when it became apparent that a minority of visiting supporters were not going to respect it."

Honestly, my response to the callous Liverpool fans behaviour is not bout .."FUCK YOU!!" or any other similar things as that..it is just bout.."C'mon, can u dare show some repects..!!!"..

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George Best FactFile
1946: Born:May 22, Belfast, Northern Ireland

Playing career:
1963-1974 Manchester United (361 league apps.; 136 league goals)
1975 Stockport County, Los Angeles Aztecs, Cork Celtic
1976 Fulham
1978 Fort Lauderdale Strikers
1979 Hibernian
1980 San Jose Earthquakes
1983-1984 Bournemouth

Honours:
European Cup (Manchester United 1968)
League championship (Manchester United 1964-65, 1966-67)
English Footballer of the Year (1968)
European Footballer of the Year (1968)
Northern Ireland: 37 caps 1964-1977; 9 goals

Once upon a time, the great "Best" wore the infamous No. 7 Red Devils Jersey..which was than later continued by other high-profile Reds Army favourite servants from different generation such as The "King" Cantona, David Beckham and Cristiano Ronaldo..

And..for most of the zealous football lovers around the world, he was regarded as a flamboyant and exciting hell of talents especially with his fantastic dribbling skills who was able to create the moment of magics..

...FOR ME..A MAN LIKE HIM NEVER DIES. WHAT HE HAS LEFT BEHIND DOES NOT DISSAPEAR...

fly high

2005-11-15T11:16:00.000+08:00

today is a really big day to me..i have the list of the 5 most biggest day i ever had for my entire life..today is for sure..is in the list..

for this entire month..i have to ignore most of the frequent things i used to do just for the sack of preparing for the worst things which might be happen today..

i attended a PTD interview just now..and again (as what i had been wrote about PTD assessment earlier)..the experience that i gained was totally indispensable..the most crucial part of me which i really hate the most is.. "NERVOUS!!!"..i admitted that this morning, i was really nervous like hell..even the "PANEL NO 1" (which i heard the two other panels keep calling her as "Datin") can sensed my aura..at that time i was thinking about 3 options which was;

a) acting i am so sick..convinced them that my family is so poor..and i am so desperate to get the job..if all the tactics failed..then..proceed to the next tactic which is acting like unconcious..fainted..they send me to the hospital..and by the time i open my eyes..there's somebody from PTD congratulated me.."Tahniah..awak diterima masuk ke Wisma Putra"..

b) run away..run to New York..London or..Tokyo..run as far as i can..until my parents..my friends..my people around me start forgetting the day of today..then i come back..acting normal..start a business..have a very good family..and acting nothing has happened...

c) face it!!!..face like a man..just bare in mind..those..whatever they called as "high-profile" interviewer..is not that good to crack me down..bring it on!!!..i'm scared..yes..but i'm not scared of you..i'm scared of how good i am to face you!!!..ceh..cam motivate diri sendiri aa ni..padahal nnti mesti interviewer ckp...CAM BAGUS JE BUDAK NI!!!!

so..as how much desire my parent showed to see me succeed in this interview..that is the same amount of desire which knocked my brain..and ring my ear..telling to start acting maturely..i chose the option no 3 and until now i don't feel any single feeling of regret..dissapointment..because of;

a) thanx god for giving me such a cordial type of interviewer..especially the "datin"..she acted..(at least acting)..as she was so sincere in listening to my ideas..every opinions that i blow from my head (which some i totally goreng)..and the communication was never monologue..and the "datin" wore GUESS bracelet summore..cool gile..

b) the questions were more highlighted to my working experience..my opinion..the things is..the "Datin" just wanna see how we talk and expressed ourself..that's it..no such an idiot question as " Hmm..Siapakah nama Yang Di-Pertuan Agong??"..

c) at the end of the interview..she was saying this.."You speak english quite well..and there is a maturity in you..are you interested in Foreign Department??..working in embassy..and so on.."..i was like "fly high" beb..fly high..

as usual..i preparing for the worst to happen..without ignoring that i still hoping that i can secure this job..bcs everything could happen..even the "datin" said..our selection is not totally depends on your qualification and self-appearance..even the over-qualified candidates couldn't secure this job..what made me wondering was..when she said.."you have established yourself in the industries..and it is not approriate for you to join the government as the environment, working ethics, technical expertise..will be most probably totally different"..(ha..nak provoke aku aa ni...)..bahasa melayunye..."ek..eleh..belajar penat2 engineering 4 tahun kat UM..buang masa je masuk gomen..jadi Pegawai Daerah...buang karen je.."..lebih kurang itulah maksudnya..

now..sume dah habis..it's a hoorahh time..!!!..movie..yes!!!..affy's open house..yes!!!..cajun, seres aku join ko gi Zouk this coming friday..yes!!..Bonny's wedding..yes!!!..it's so..so..so..heaven to finally getting your life back....

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2005-11-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day..why??

1) one of this project of mine really give me so much of headache..and at the same time my boss keep on interrupting..asking this and that..about other assignments..which at some point...made me so annoyed...from 8.30...hmm not really actually...let say..8.45 or 8.55 should me more probably accurate... still 5.30..i was doing 3 assignments at one time...my boss told me that WESTIN had already chasing us..asking us to release the report as soon as possible since that the BLOODY LAI...moaned and accused us for dragging the report for quite sometimes...plus..since there is only three of us..and i'm the youngest..(balaci aa..)..so just paham2 aa..and since aku paham la..i decided to put more effort and try to complete the report as soon as possible..keja bukan senang lak tu..part2 take-off drawing, check VO's...aa tu sume campak kat aku!!! what is so fucking problem with you all..tolong aaa!!! one of my collegue ni..terang2 tak nak sentuh..even when the time i was so busy doing asset registration job in JB with my boss (which actually my head dept..)..and secara terangnya..jeff (which actually is my head)..pass over the assignment to her..(which actually make me so happy)...the most effort she can offer was..print all the draft report yang aku dah buat..lepas tu ada la skit2 highlighter warna oren..komen sini and sana..then by the time i enter the office on the following week..she passed it back to me..and acting as she was so sorry for not able to complete it..the thing is..I DON'T ASKED YOU TO COMMENT THE DRAFT REPORT OF MINE...JUST COMPLETE THE ASSESSMENT WORK LA ASSHOLE..aku seres paham..bab2 bukak drawing..bab2 assessment report ni seres dia malas nak sentuh sebab leceh and banyak keja..since still terkenangkan yang she's still my senior, and there's plenty more of harta karun yg aku nak korek dari buah kepala dia tu..so takpe..takpe..it's simple..KO TENGOK AA NANTI BILA AKU DAH TERER!!!..

with jeff..honestly secara keseluruhannya, i feel so OK working with him..but it is totally NOT OK when everytime he used to interrupt while i'm doing my work..

Situation: I'm so fucking frustrated with the contractor VO submission on WESTIN project..i put my glass on..open the related drawing and start to concentrate doing a taking-off..sometimes there's thousand of lighting point need to be counted..taking a deep breath..and start counting...then suddenly..this I-DUNNO-YOU-SO FUCKING-BUSY??-JEFF..open his mouth..

Jeff: (acting dunno that i'm so fucking busy) Hey, what do you think if I call Andri and ask some money for us to spend during our next JB visit..

Me: (ok..now u start interrupting me..neevermind..first try..i think i can handle this) hmm..yeah..that is so..so..ok..why not u just give him a call..

few minutes later..

Jeff: zur..what do you think if we change our CITY SQUARE format report..i think the font is too big..and we need to insert more space..how about the footer?? is it ok if we just put AC/1 instead of ACMV/1...bla..bla...

Me: (dia dah start dah..still able to controlled my temperament..) Later on la..i'm doing WESTIN rite now..i'll check those things later..

Jeff: hey zur, do you think all the Tagging Codes are in order..can u print all the documents..and check it one more round..i'm thinking about sending the e-mail to Andri..we should be better start doing the order..

Me: ...(Dumbhead!!don't u see what i'm doing rite now!!yesterday..u asked me to start concentrate doing the WESTIN..now you want me do the CITY SQUARE la..kepala hotak ko!!..and then asking this and that..your dad sent u to US for study..and u still require me to answer those silly q bout the font la..bout footer aa..can't u think..fucking think by your ownself la..aku hentak kepala ko kang!!!) ok..i'll print the list..

...the big problem with this jeff is..he is expecting me to be such an efficient robot..similar to what he used to be when everytime he is serving our PARTNERS!!!..bila tengah buat assigment ni..dia tanya pasal assignment lain..bila tengah check drawing..tiba2 dia tanya pasal tu la ni la..seres fed-up..bila tengah buat report ni..at the same time..dia suruh buat benda lain...lama2 sampai tahap dah malas gila nak layan..eventhough some of them mmg wajib aku jawab pun...for example:

Jeff: Eng just called me..asking for the report..bila u can complete it??

Me: (buat2 tak dengar..)

Jeff: zur..bila u bole siapkan report WESTIN??

Me: Tak tau aa..banyak lagi ni..tgk aa ni..light fitting ada 1097..socket outlet ada 879..sume VO ada 50..skang baru buat 30..CITY SQUARE lagik..ni 26 building TNB nak start kena buat..TAKAFUL nyer building..nak start minggu depan..replacement cost tak buat lagik..

.....and the good thing about jeff is...

Jeff: takpe2..just continue doing the WESTIN first..i'll speak to Eng..tipu sikit aaa..call LFE for meeting..cakap banyak barang dia tak submit lagik..we try to buy sometimes..

.....and 5 minutes later, he continue his stupid habit..

Jeff: zur, have u start doing the replacement cost for CITY SQUARE??have u download the TAKAFUL photo..

Me: (fuck you la jeff!!! sambil buat2 tak dengar..)

2) i found my tire flat..TOTALLY FLAT..after sembahyang jumaat..which at first i thought "pancit"...at this time..i was like.."shit, time2 ni aa ko nak pancit.."..panas terik+tayar pancit..BEST!!!..but..i becoming more angry when i realized that actually it was not pancit..just that there was somebody which i shall dubbed him/her (most probably.."him") as ASSHOLE..intentionally..disrupted one of the tyre..at first one of this guy informed me.."bang tayar abang ni pancit ni.."...i jumped out from the seat and..."Sial, mmg pancit..cibai time2 ni la ko nak pancit.."..then eevery single person yang lalu depan keta aku sume nak tegur pasal tayar pancit tu..(hey fucker, aku tau la pancit...i don't need the whole damn innocent malaysian to informed me that my tyre is PANCIT!!!! you fucker get no reward for telling me the same thing...ko tak nampak ke org depan ko tadi dah tegurr aku..zipped your mouth..)..lagik yg buat bengang..bila hantar gi kedai..(20 meter dr tempat kejadian)..the chinese told me that my tyre is OK.."lu punya taya ok..takda bocor..paku pun tadak.."..time tu i was seriuosly like.."cilaka..ni ada aa org yg buat ni..."..it's simple to me..the "asshole" buat aku susah..i hope the same thing will happen to the "asshole"..ko kena langgar..kudung kaki..tak bole keja..insurans lupa nak ambik!!!..kena berenti keja..bini ko tak tahan nak jaga ko..keluarga ko tinggalkan ko..ko duduk merempat..hisap dadah..dapat HIV..frust..bunuh diri..then masuk neraka!!! i'm praying the worst thing will happen to the "asshole"..seeres..aku tak tau apsal bengang gila tadi..if i was blocking your fucking cheap car...there's plenty more yg parking cam aku..do the same fucking things to them aaa..plus..it was sembahyang jumaat la..selain vatican city..mana2 tempat pun sesak bila sembahyang jumaat..paham2 aa..yg ko nak tunjuk samseng apsal lak!!! tp seres kalo yg buat ni melayu..ko memang TOTAL SIAL!!!!!!!

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Raya

2005-11-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

it's a RAYA day, today..as usual (happened for the last 3 series of RAYA)..i woke up late..and need some "injury" times to prepare for sembahyang raya..apparently, i still managed to performed the sembahyang raya..on the parking street..berlapikkan samping raya..

this year, we celebrated RAYA together with abg Joy+family and abg Min+family..(we are practicing rotation system for each year)..and in contrast..abg Man+family had to celebrate RAYA with his "other" family in Perak...

after sembahyang RAYA, we had "Bersalam-salaman", "Maaf-Maafan" and "short speech from our parent and the eldest siblings..(its the turn for abg Joy as he is the 2nd eldest in our family)..it is more like a pesanan+teguran org tua kepada anak-anak..and..pesanan abg kepada adik-adik..and every RAYA, we..adik-beradik akan nangis..seres insaf siot..

our first destination after sembahyang raya..(for each year)..was visited kubur nenek at Taman Permata..followed by visited my closest uncle..Pak Ngah..seres bila dah gi umah Pak Ngah i can't resist from cramping all the damn foods into my throat..plus my Pak Ngah ni mmg pandai pujuk makan dan habiskan segala mende makanan yg dia hidang kt meja tu...badly need to check my up-to-date weight aaa....it followed by visited my nenek sedara at Taman Melewar..until late evening...

at night, there's nothing interesting..it was more like a small family gathering...everybody sat in front of tv and watched apa-apa rancangan yg tersiar kat tv tu..so at the same time..bole aa sibuk melayan kerenah anak-anak buah..

tomorrow..we are planning to go down to Malacca and visit some of our relatives somewhere around Jasin..Tangkak..Alor gajah...and whatsoever...it must be a very,very, very tiring day...

still thinking bout my coming PTD interview... already start feeling the "pressure" as most of the family members have been expressing their expectation...really..really..really..hopefully i could do well....anyone!!! pray for me too aaa....

i think i had wish Selamat HAri Raya to most of my closest friend around me...still terharu coz dpt sms RAYA from people yg lama gila tak contact and some of them yg jarang gila bertergur sapa...some of them were really unexpected...Denise..Am..Faraidi..Einur..Abg annas..Abg Rosli..Abg Hamid..Cai..Moon..etc...to those yg tak sempat nak ucap tu...still wish u guys "Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin"...nak kata "dosa" tu...aku rasa seres MELAMBAK siot..ye la sometimes...mulut ni takde insurans gak..main sedap cakap je...kutuk-mengutuk..ngumpat-mengumpat..bengang..dendam..benci...maki-hamun..seres hopefully those people really forgive me...

so..my mom oredi membebel suruh tido..coz besok kena drive balik Melaka....

searching the ol' time spirits..

2005-10-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

tonite..i am so obsessed..searching back the ol' days hard rock music spirits...the excitement rememberance of the ol' days nu-metal, punk rock, hard-core, garage and grunge sounds of musics and bla..bla..which once upon time..gave me a lot of strength and energy exploring the beauty of musics universally..lately i was too much into indo+malay dan segala-gala yang sewaktu dengannya..(but they were the selected one haa!!!)..there is no complaints bout that..bcs truely..i could listen to any kind of musics as long as it suits my musics appetite..i'm not hypocrite..(at least..)..i'm not type of twenth four seven head-bangers who forever say no to anything slower than "slipnot"..or a kinda type of music lovers who "must" only listen to the lyrics full of "f" words..(it was a long time a go..where i was struggled to buy imported cds since local distributors tend to edit all the harsh words..)..i am not loyal to any kind of music genre..the music i listened is more naturally depends on my mood..and it will varied..anytime..anywhere..back to the earlier point..due to the ol' time spirits yg merasuk-rasuk ni..i spent my entire night just to download back most of the latest/old tracks which i missed all this while..especially..deftones..snot..korn..snapcase..drowning pool..incubus..at the drive in..etc..like lately..(since hari tu terjumpa harta2 karun cajun kat gasing..including cd snapcase dia tu.."Designs for Automation")..i was so excited listening to snapcase..even the cd is still stucked in my cd player for almost 3 days....at least for a while i'm back!!!..searching the ol' time spirits...

"memoir" seminggu di negeri Johor..poyo version..

2005-10-16T12:55:00.000+08:00

I just came back from jb..it was a one week outstation work which mainly doing assets registration for our "fussy" singaporean client which owned the JB City Square in jb. i was there with my "boss" a.k.a jeffrey a.k.a my head department..and the best part was..our kl office arranged a 5-star hotel for us which was The Puteri Pan Pacific for our 6-days stay in jb..

Day one (Monday,10/10)

theoritically, we departure from kl on Sunday nite which was around 12.00 am..picked up my boss at pandan mewah..and straight headed to famously lebuhraya utara-selatan..we reached there at 3.30 a.m..we went to mamak restaurant..i had my sahur..and subsequently..scratching our head for an idea of the place for us to get a short nap before attending a meeting at 8.30 a.m. since our hotel reservation activated on the following day, so the only choice was...CAR!!!..so there we were..got a 4 hours nap..in a car..in front of the pan pac hotel..with the engine turning-on..until we finally woke up..just to realized that the car park was already fully-loaded..we woke up..tidy up ourself..went to the hotel lobby washroom..took a simple shower..and principally, just try not to be suspiciously looked like a pathetic poverty kl strangers in the middle of the jb town!!! all done..straight headed to jb city square..for a 30 minutes meeting..meet-up with our fellows jb branch collegues, CSquare branch and maintenance manager, supervisors...and subsequently..initiated our first walk through the entire building and started with our assets registration exercise....

the entire day was totally tiring!! that killed my interest to walk-out from the hotel for the first nite of our stay in jb..it was so frustrated+boredom...suddenly i was thinking bout one of my fren..and the almost 3 hours tele-conversation unintentionally ended my day in a much better way.. at least....

Day two (Tues,11/10)

i had my first nice experience as early as 3.30 in the morning which was.."eating sahur besides the window panel of my hotel room with just in front of me..a clear excellent scenary of Singapore flooded with night lighting"..i would snap a picture if only i could supposedly afford to buy my own lumix..so apparently..i just captured and stored the scenary in my mind..

....other than that, it was typically tiring day of work..none interesting to tell bout...unless you guys are really interested knowing more bout a/cond, fire sprinklers, domestic water pump, cooling towers, and other similar stuffs like that..so just forget bout these...

the most interesting part was..capeng sms-ed me and told that i was selected for PTD interview..!!!!hooray!!! for the PTD No: 197 candidate!!!...

i had my break-fasting at my brother's house in Mutiara Rini..(it's in skudai..if not mistaken)..then went back to hotel..watching those silly channel available on tv..and finally doze-off with my t-shirt and pant still tacked on me..

Day three (Wed,12/10)

..after we had completed our work..so me and my boss accompanied by our frens just walked through the adjacent area besides jb city square..we learnt that the the jb centre town was surrounded by hundreds of cd/dvd stall/shops which in fact..the dvds was sold at a very cheap price..as cheap as rm6..and the most we had to pay is only rm8..even the pornographic dvds were sold openly with a price as cheap as rm15..(hehe).. and even more..i think..undoubtedly..you guys could find any movie titles that u want..they sold some of the rare interesting movies..from french..latino..with all the "padi"..being tagged on the cover..(popo, stone and jeg surely could easily had their eyes burnt!!!)..

then..we had a called from local contractor..asking to bring us out for a couple of drinks.. we went back to hotel..get prepared..and together we went to a famously pub..just a little outskirt of jb..named "Orang-Orang" (SO WEIRD NAME..)..i don't "drinks!!"..so i just drank a coke..the girs there were pretty and most of them had a long leg..since it was "just a pub"..so it means that we just had our drinks!!!..talking business..(cehh..)..bullshitting a little bit..pleased him a little bit..(for paying our drinks and every moment we had in Orang-Orang)..talking bout golf..(ceh..bosan..)..talking bout karaoke gals..(its normal topics for contractors).. talking dirty things bout thailand..(cehh..just layan je..i never been there afterall..)..and etc..and finally he brought us to "stualang"..(aku rasa aa nama nye..)..had supper tepi laut..just adjacent to the "free-duty" area..subsequently..sent us back to hotel..thanks him..then..suddenly forgot all bout him as soon as i enter my room...

Day four (Thurs,13/10)

me and my "boss" a.k.a jeffrey went to Danga Bay after berbuka..i still can't find anything much special bout this place!!!...for ever 10 johorian i asked about the best nightspot for us to hang around..9 of the answer would be "Danga Bay!!!"(driver taxi).."Danga Bay la bang.."(7 eleven worker).."Danga Bay kot.."(adik kak ipar aku).."why not you go to Danga Bay"..(CSquare receptionist)..so the johorians would all answer "DANGA BAY!!"..

danga bay..is nice to hang around..but comparatively, i would prefer to hang at hartamas..or even Raju Corner "roti canai"..to be honest..it is the best place for "couple" who diely intended to proposed his wife-gonna-be with a little bit singapore scenary+some high speed boat and yacht scenary..i dunno what the problems...but i just dont felt anything interesting bout them..there was open food-court (who sell tomyam yg banyak "sampah" for ONLY rm8..)..International restaurant (if that tomyam "sampah" cost u rm8..i couldn't imagine the cost of this restaurant's tomyam "sampah" creation)..there was a keretapi..ala cam kat zoo negara tu..u can see every johorians were so excited riding the keretapi..(whatever!!!!)..there was a roller-coaster+merry-go-round-cup+etc..which looked like a normal fun-fair which happened supposedly in the big city as JB..some stalls..selling t-shirt written as "Welcome to Danga Bay"..and so on..so for me Danga Bay is not a extra-ordinary must visited place which originally digembar-gemburkan oleh orang-orang JB..*sigh*

Day five (Fri,14/10)

i finished my work as early as 5.00 pm..then already planned to had a "fast-breaking" with my brother..he invited me to join a "berbuka puasa bersama rakan-rakan" session at Taat House, just a 10 minutes from my hotel..my brother paid for it..so..it's free!!!!..so it was a 'MUST GO' thingy..ala tunjuk aa muka manis sikit..borak 2-3 patah ngan member dia..the rest of the time i spent it wisely enjoying all the delicious foods provided..it was so deliberately delicious!!!..i might say..the menus were quite simple..but..those meals taste so good..no wonder..i saw the hall was fully loaded with various races of people enjoying their meals..chinese..indians..malays..(of course ha!!!)..mat saleh..

after sembahyang maghrib..enjoying some desserts..(that time just realized that there was Hani Mohsin just a distance away from table..not bothering me, instead!!)..then..salamss..(just a plural for bersalam2)..then drove back to my hotel..at first me and my boss planned to enjoy a live-band show at Eden Hotel (suggested by a "one-night-in-jb-memoir" contractor..but then suddenly..rasa malas teramat sangat..so we just sat in my room..we chat a lots..i asked a lot of beer..liquors..about those wines..bout spanish-fly..tequila..shot-gun high-fly..the tigers..bout all the damn things..(just asking as the day before saw them had their drinks together at Orang-Orang)..just wanna know bout the taste..how good having those beers..what the differences between them..and so on..bcs my "boss" was studied in US during the ol' skool times...and he meant to be so exposed with those kind of the world of "air haram"..just for my info...i supposed...at least i don't find myself loss in the middle of the related-topic discussion..later on..at least we know..to taste it...insyaallah..i will never ever do it..at 11 pm..we went out for a while..took our supper..bought some mineral water..cigarettes and so on..already planned for a little bit "stay-up" at night instead of typical early 12.00 o'clock dozing time..just that it was so happened that the next day..there were nothin else important things to do at office..so it was ok to wake up a little bit late..(10 am for example..)..

Day six (Sat,15/10) - final day

as planned earlier, i woke up at 10 am..bought sometimes to do cleaning and some packings..bought sometimes to enjoy my last hot shower in "ROOM 1211"..which later on would similarly been enjoyed by thousands of others..(whos knows if some great people is in the list..)..bought sometimes to clear my "sahur" tray..took it slowly and placed it slowly outside my room..and bought sometimes enjoying reading newspaper with the scenary of singapore scenary just happened to be in front of me..(lebih2 sial aku describe ni..padahal biasa je aku rasa..poyo lebih)..and after everything settled-off..check-out..and headed to JB City Square for a few more tide-up works..

around 2.15 pm..after my "boss" satisfied himself by doing some shoppings...he bought some PADINI's..then we continue our final chapter of a one week adventure..driving back to KL..it's a homie land, dude..around 7, we reached my boss apartment..and it was already "azan"..so..again..there was always Marlboro 10's (its becoming 10's instead of 14's..its Ramadhan maa..)..screamed to be burnt and being slipped into my lips..reached home at 7.15..everybody were in my house..Andy..my cousin..my brother+his family+his wife's family..my recently just 2 days employed indonesian house-maid and others...without wasting time..just throw all the damn foods ever crossed in front of me..altogether into my tummy...heavenly!!!!!!!

...just 1 one week diary...as far as i am concerned..the previous entries were never longer than this..maybe it is a story-time..just feel that myself is fully-loaded with story to be told and and story not to be told...

daaa..

..Reciting the God Order..

2005-10-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

here it comes again "Ramadhan eve"!!! ahlan wah Sahlan!!

i was thinking about penning this topic for my yesterday entry..but..masa syok menaip..suddently somebody pull off my network cable..and you know once it has already disconnected..there is no way to get back to what you had previously wrote..maybe that was the perfectly ringing bell..

Puasa-Day 2

Sahur : Amin crashed my merry-go-round dreamz..(syok gile mimpi semalam)..forced me to get my ass prepared for sahur..which i had ordered earlier..lauk bujang..nasik lauk ayam goreng..and for sure its "beli!!"..i can't remember when the last time we broke the kitchen and showed our skills in cooking.."beli!!"..easy maa..but to be frank..since i was a kid..i hate sahur with "nasi lauk-pauk"..it is too much..dude..my mom was always there..forcing me to load the "nasi lauk-pauk" all into my tummy....hmm..missed that so much!! subsequently..burn a cigarette..and smoke with whole-heartedly...its so damn challenging aaa.. daily life without cigarette..just so to happen in a month out of the entire year..practice aa remie!!!..then..solat..and continue bedding..anxiously searching back the missed episode of my merry-go-round dream..

Working Call : woke up at 7.15..tdo balik..then bangun at 7.30..then tdo balik..and finally bangun at 7.45..the toilets were full..woke up..walked to my closet..searched for the shirt and pants..ironed..and try to looked cool like it was still too early for work..once the toilet giving the green light ping..jumped into it and got myself showered..

Office : its normal for everybody in the office watching me passed by as late as 8.45..or..8.50..or..8.59 (my office hour is 8.3o) ..its NOT NORMAL for them to see me passed by the entrance at 8.35..even one of receptionist glanced at me..disbelief..for sure..its not because of my smart-looking appearance in the verge of the mind-numbing+monotonous+boring morning..for sure..bcs of the considerate of thinking that finally..i was "nearly" able to comprehend the company philosophy.."PUNCTUALITY"..what the heck..i don't bother bout it..anyway..

Workload : "alhamdulillah" is the best word to be fully utilized during this ramadhan..instead of "s**t", "f**k", "***-hole"..and whatsoever..those routine foul words keeps running in my head everytime i feel so f**k-up..tensed..etc..it is so bloody EVEREST aaa..somemore..lotz of preparation need to be done for next week "one week outstation work" in JB..(that will be much more interesting chapter especially tengah PUASA ni..damn)..but..dengan adanya "barakah" puasa ni..pretend everything flows perfectly smooth..

Berbuka : get my ass out of the office as early as i can..5.20..and my mind was already pointed sharply to the "ayam percik special" pasar ramadhan TTDI..which caught my attention the day earlier..by the time i managed to grab one of the nearby parking..Affy rang me and asked to "bukak puasa" together with Todd and Syidee..n the best part is..she cordially offered the "bukak puasa" treat..hehe..without thinking twice..straight approaching to Gasing..picked her up..made a reservation at The Thai Corner..went back to Gasing..took a shot nap..woke up..approached to Thai Corner with Affy and Todd..met Syidee..and there i was..having "Steam Siakap", "Kailan+Beef", "Mixed Tomyam", "Hot plate Towfoo", "Honey-Dew appertizer" and "sotong goreng" as my free-of-charge "berbuka puasa menu"..yummy..full-loaded..and afterwards..smoke like hell.. celebrating the most recent cigarette price rises..

Terawih : Some people might think that for sure..i was going to miss this part..especially my mom..(keep asking me if i exercising the "terawih")..THE ANSWER is I DID MOM..start from tonight..CONTINUOUSLY??..that part i think i might lose again..but..for sure..i'll always reserve some of my effort to do it..tonite..me..with popo..amin..syidee..apez..berterawih at IB..which well-known of their super express 8 rakaat exercise..plus MORE..(bonus)..but..i think the tag worn by them, no more..tak de aa laju sangat..n takde aa slow sangat..just nice..since i was studying in UM until now..i still find that IB is one of the modest place to exercising "terawih"..

...its already 12.37..badly need to doze-off..otherwise..i might missed my sahur..

anyone found one of these..

2005-09-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

a top 10 list of my missing cds..

1) Marilyn Manson : Holy Wood (In the Shadow of the Valley of Death) - Marilyn Manson

A : Local Made
B : RM 40.00 ++
C : A bit slow to adapt with Manson's songs..this was my second cd after previously bought his full compilation of "all-time best" music videos..at one time..my opinion bout him.."Get a life dude!!"(ceh..cam biasa ayat ni..)

2) MACHINA/The Machines of God - Smashing Pumpkins

A : Local Made
B : RM 35.00 (bought at OU)
C : You asked Cajun!!He's a truely die-hard fans..i am just a backbenchers..

3) First Wing - Takako Uehara

A : Imported
B : RM 59.00 (if i'm not mistaken..bought at Tower Records OU)
C : Prime motive..she's gorgeous..other than that..hmm..give me sometimes to search for logical reasons!!!

4) Evil Empire - Rage Against The Machine

A : Imported
B : Can't remember dude..
C : Priceless!!i kill those who stole this album..definitely..no considerate..

5) The Battle of Los Angeles - Rage Against The Machine

A : Local
B : RM 35.00++
C : still idoling zach de la rocha..even at that time..i was hesitated to change the whole image of myself and just want to be like him..

6) New Found Glory - New Found Glory

A : Local
B : Can't remember..
C : hmm..just an alternative selection when i'm boared listening to green day's

7) Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park

A : Imported
B : RM 45.00++( i bought it at Victoria Music Kota Raya)
C : Priceless!!It was the time when they was "nobody" in the scene..it was the time, Korn..Deftones..RATM..Slipnot..hold the dominance..Ironically, this album was introduced to me by a form 3 students while i was actually looking for Korn latest album..

8) Dookie - Green Day (cassette)

A : Local kot..
B : It had been a long time dude..totally can't recalled the price..
C : It was among the best debut album..i guess..(eventhough i heard there were few others had been released prior to dookie)

9) The Marshall Mathers LP - Eminem

A : Pirate (ceh..)
B : 15.00 kot..ala..Uptown maa..
C : It was the time when "Stan" sounds everywhere..until it made me crazy to pumped it into my collection..it was also the time when i start to admit that "white" can rapping that well..i thought after "vanilla ice" it was all ended!! (whatever??)

10) Stone Riders - Cypress Hill

A : Pirate (again!!! cis..)
B : how bout RM xx.xx
C : They're genius dude!! Shot yourself if u guys never heard bout them..

Nic O' Tynne

2005-09-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

smoking is bad for health..
wish i never try it before..
just find myself stucked..
and confined in the requisite of "nic O' Tynne" influence..
just feel pity of myself..

Giggs : The Autobiography - Ryan giggs

2005-09-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

the suspect : Ryan Giggs

nick : giggsy

high : .."since he first captured Sir Alex Ferguson's attention 17 years ago - when the Scot likened him to 'a dog chasing a piece of silver paper in the wind"..

low : .."bluntly points out how annoyed he was at being left out of last season's FA Cup final starting line-up"..

loyalty : .."Out-of-favour Giggs 'won't quit United"..

desire : .."It is not the eight championships which drive you on, it is the two or three you didn't win"..

passionate : .."ah well, I have won it four times, I am not that bothered'. I wanted a fifth and p***ed off was how I felt"..

gong ho : .."he scored one of the greatest goals ever witnessed in the semi-final replay against Arsenal in April 1999"..

triumph : .."Giggs is the only player to have played in all eight of those title winning campaigns"..

frenzy : .."One Valentine's Day, 3,000 cards arrived for him at United's Carrington training ground"..

supports : .."Giggs still has 'big part' to play"..

.."One thing seems clear: the crowd will be singing "Giggs will tear you apart, again!" for a few years yet"..

Ohaiyokk!!!

2005-09-18T01:43:00.000+08:00

just wanna update few japan drama series which i have been watched recently..

1) Engine : Actor : Takuya Kimura..Actress: Koyuki (ala..yg berlakon The Last Samurai ngan Tom Cruise)..typical acting by Takuya..ko la yg paling "cool" and ko la yg paling "hero" sekali..tp nak buat camna..tu jugak la yg buat cite tu best..

2) Summer Snow : the prime reason..of course aa..Ryoko Hirosue..cute gile aa dia ni..previously, she was in Beach Boys and Shotgun Marriage..which both are the worth watching series..(to me aa..)..the storyline..is simple..lots of humor..

3) To heart ~ koishite shinitai : actornye..Dohmoto Tsuyoshi..at first..aa bosan gile aa dia ni..coz most of the time i was watching Takuya as the hero..but as the series flows..without any doubt..i think he's the backbone of the play..the heroin..Kyoko Fukada..ala lembik aa dia ni..seres bosan!!!

4) Be nice to people / 3 Piece : by reading the title itself..cis amat poyo la bunyi nye..few times popo try to convince me to watch this series..but the truth is..ni lah antara yg paling best aku pernah tgk..lawak tahap Dewa Kayangan nye..and the impotant parts..in most of the japan drama series aa..Morale Value..nak kata total Morale Value..kena bilang jari tangan ngan kaki..but since that aku ni kebal..takde satu pun morale value tu yg dpat meresap ke dalam otak aku ni..(ceh..)

5) Beauty or Beast (in progress) : Actor: Fukuyama Masaharu..Actress : Nanako Matsushima..(aa..malas aa nk tulis panjang)..just completed 3 episodes..n 8 more to go..

badly need to doze off..zzzzzz

..K2M..

2005-09-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

last night..our club.."they" named it as "Kelab Muda Mudi-K2M" (ceh..geli gak dengar namanye)..having a modest bowling tournament at One Utama..my group just managed to finished 5th..ok la tu..

...L.O.D...

2005-09-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

..skateboarding is so cool although i have yet getting a chance to get into it..perhaps..i tend to vanish it from my list considering it is too late to initiate the first move.."LORDS OF DOGTOWN"..in my opinion..perfectly demonstrate the real passion of this games..sadly missed the whole beauty of it...

thought of a day..

2005-09-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

after just 11 months..i might..again considering my options to change job..why?? dunno..everythings seems to be confusing..obviously, after nearly 3 years searching for a right career, i still can't get what i really want..and even scared that everything that i had planned before i reached 30s are hardly to achieve..

PTD wannabe..

2005-09-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

my whole perception of government servants ethics and calibre changed since i attended a PTD assessment course last weekend..they named the 3 days assessement course as "PAC" which means "PTD Assessment Centre"..the course was held at INTAN timur..located at Kemaman..(since that..i was so obssessed adding "G" in each of my words..hehe)

without doubt..majority of us are still prefer to be part of private sector..which obviously offer bigger amount of salaries..and even some might say..that they were more professionals and competitive..but trust me..for those who have attended the PAC programme..at least we barely admit that being a PTD could be one of the most greatest self-achievement we could be proud of for our entire life..

to be frank..to get ourself into government sector is harder than u can imagine..to be a PTD..for me..it's far worst than i expected..during the PAC programme..i easily see myself hard to adapt with the stiff competition thrown by thousands of other candidates..there were thousands of character which i considered as "weird"..thousands of character which i considered as "too charismatic"..few others which i feel easily could be branded as a natural leaders in the making..nevertheless..there were also some who i saw over-reacting..too desperate selling their ownself..just to get more attention..until everybody could easily see..how faked those people were all about..pretending to be "YANG PALING PTD SEKALI!!!"..which at some point..i felt so annoyed..and was more like.."lantak aa korang.."

all the activities are so interesting and amazingly..we are easily gelled and able to worked together as a group..(although there were still numbers of dumb-heads-most-pathetic-mankind-on-earth fighting each other..for not dare to share the "spotlight").. there was a "problem solving activities", public speaking in malays and english, 2.4 km fitness test, parliment debate and ended with a closing speech by Intan Timur Director on the day we graduated as successfully completed the 3 days PAC programme..

but..sadly..i dont think that i have done to the full limit of my capabilities..3 times failed to commit punctuality enough to tell how slim my chances will be..hehe..(plus ada sekali tu silap masuk kelas lagik..DAAA!!)..but to me..i still think what i've done is the best i could do at the moment..i think its better to be natural..to be "who you are"..not just a "3 days PALING PTD!! candidates" which is barely faked and disgusted..i know what the extent of capabilities i had..at the same times admit millions of weekness compare to some candidates which me myself so admired (ada budak tu aku ngan jamy panggil "Number 1", paling dedikasi skali..sesuai ngan No 1 yang tertera kat badan dia..banding ngan aku yang bernombor "197" ni..huk..huk)..

if there is any other similar chance in the future..i'm sure i would grab the opportunities..by the time..maybe i am a much more prepared and more convincing than what "Number 1" had shown..insyaAllah..

Gincu Ungu n Violet Gol

2005-08-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

Two malay movie in two weeks..SHUT UP!!!..
few years back, i might killed myself rather than keep myself alive if somebody forced me to enjoy watching malay movies..but, recently i am shamely admitted that few malay movies are worth to watch..my previous entry..i was penning bout "sepet" which until now i still regards it as a best movie ever made by malaysian director for how many years..i can't remember..but..the other two newly modest malay movies which i recently watched were also good.."Ungu Violet" and "Gol n Gincu"..much talked have been heard bout these two interestin movies..sometimes..i was wondering..the admiration is due to the movies itself..or the cutie actress..(i even wore seat belt to prevent myself from jumping everytime Dian appear on the screen..) or maybe just a blessing from the indie movie admirers who desperately seeking a wholely changes from a typical malay movie perspectives..
There will be a new Indon movie hit the silver screen by the end of this week..Rangga!!hopefully it will worth my 10 bucks..popo has told me the title..but didn't stick in my mind aa..

memories..shut down..

2005-08-28T19:06:00.000+08:00

today..huh..it's a so fucking boredom!! huh..*relief*..i dunno..it's like nothing such as nice and beautiful dreams nesting in my mind..i have nothin interestin to do..no interestin person to meet..no money to spend.. no companion to dig an old-time jokes..no gasingerz for only-we-know-what-the-jokes-is-all-about..aahhh.. it should have been a very nice weekend, i suppose..but i can' t feel the xcitement anymore...

there's someone who i really..really..really..wanna meet and chat when it comes to this very pathetic moment..someone who i honoured as my very special friend..once i so deadly missed the whole day and nite..the one who i find so meaningful in my eyes..who can makes me so happy for thousand years..

honestly, i dunno what inside her makes me so crazy about..we find out that we're never clique..we hates in each other in some ways..we so incredibly akin to each other in some 'ways'..we hardly meet..we hardly contact each other..we prefer to keep our mouth shut when everytime we hang out together..once we admit that we rarely being ourself when comes to relationships..sometimes we prefer to view things in hard ways..we hardly admit mistakes..

those obstacles still couldn't slam my intention from admiring her as a very special friend..prudently, i don't think of anyway we'll be as close as before..she might even already have someone even more special at a first place..well, i am still believe all the things happen for a good reason..and to make a further steps for serious relationship as before maybe not be a prudent decision..

as much as i really missed her..i do also feel much wiser if i just let her go freely..freely out of my mind..though, hoping there's someone who is better in holding the responsibilities to make her happy.. it's ok to be just a friend like this..

just a piece of pathetics mull in the middle of the boring day....

"""MoOdY***

2005-07-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES, i used to sit alone..just wanna spend my time for my ownself..just to be with me. TO be honest..it may obviously happen when i feel so DOWN. SOME people used to speak up their problems to someone they trust..some even shout to the world..just wanna let everybody know that "come on..i'm so down right now. is everybody listening!!!". I am more comfortable to just speak up my problems to myself..since, honestly none of the people around me that i feel i can trust so much..maybe. I can even spend the whole of my day, just demarcate myself in my room..thinking..dreaming..sleeping..FOR me its time for me to ignore all the damn things around me..refreshing myself..analysing my mistakes..n bla..bla..ITS kinda feel that i becoming so sensitive..n lately, the so-down feeling hits me so regularly..

welcome back to the scene...

2005-07-06T01:36:00.000+08:00

"Achid worked in Dubai"..it sounds crazy la..project:The Palm..it sounds crazier..but it's the truth.."rezeki" dia..that's the perfect word la..as far as i'm concern..some of my frenz 'round me don't like him..what the heck!! none of my problem la..bcs i always stressed this.."i do not have any problem having frenz with someone who majority of people don't like"..coz it's simple..as long he/she doesn't give me any trouble..it's always ok to me..tak elok meniru-niru aa..so last sunday..he was here in KL..and as usual..one of the usual thing we done together..is GIGS!!!..plus cajun..curently not in the good mood..asyik sedih je..turun gasing pun dah tak nak..so achid suggest us to accompany Fareed (Xcited Screamers) for a modest gigs at Klang..just to give some support la..there we were..GIGS paling simple pernah aku attend!!..simple crowd..simple stage..but there was still some energetic performance..since we reached there a little bit late..so we just able to catch 2 bands perfoming..the first band..honestly..never heard bout them..but really sounds like "At the Drive In"..but yang boring nye..crowd more prefer to just sit n head bang rather that dancing, "pogo" n whatsoever..so passive la..and the other band..who else..Xcited Screamers..their musics still remained the same..but fareed voice improves so much..their music more like mellow..but still some additive with raps and core elements..

..i even snapped some pictures..

***me and cajun..heading to Xcited Screamers training session..Uptown***

***At the Drive In wannabe***

***Xcited Screamers..but unlucky..there was no Dennis***

***they even performed Malay song..aik..apahal diorang ni***

***achid dah gemuk..aku dah gemuk..cajun pun dah gemuk***

achid worked in Dubai..stone going to Terengganu..most of them are started make a move..i'm still stucked here in KL..shit..

Curse them all..

2005-06-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

lately..just think bout those stupid things again..but i think its time to me to decide..sincerely..at this very moment..i really hope all this feeling just hell out from my mind..curse them all..curse those fucking feelings..curse all those memories...

homie..

2005-06-27T03:30:00.000+08:00

this weekend, i spent most of my times just hanging at home..my parent's home..not gasing..it's been a while since the last time i slept in my own room..which now i understood nearly being hijacted by my sister..

so like usual..being at home..i just feel like a little baby..there's mom who ready to cook any of my wish meals..there's mom who will wake me up in the morning..there's mom who anxiously looking after my room..just to ensure that its comfortable for me for bedding..its everything..although everytime i told her that i could take care of those things for myself..i'm a big boy..even 25..but..yes..maybe those things happen bcs i am just a mummy's boy..the things that i have to admit..the title which some people simply wish to avoid..but eventually..for me..something that i am proud of..

even at 25..at times where i feel so tensed..i wish to hear her voice..telling me that everythings will be just fine..at times where i feel so extremely sad..its her who always witnessed the "little" part of me..crying..and badly need her hugged..

...hopes that GOD always blessed her with full of wonderful life..everyday..and every night...

..hadapi dengan senyuman..DEWA

2005-06-24T21:43:00.001+08:00

still can't help myself from stop listening to DEWA songs..it's becoming addicted.."high gile (means "syok" gile)" , said one of the "fans", stone..yeah..it's true mate..some of the lyrics means a lot to me..other than that..i do admire the musics.."malay musics sucks!!"..some of us might say..yeah it's absolutely true to me..but this ain't no malays musics..although practically the wordings are mostly in malay..oopps..indon..the concert..held at KL Tower was really enjoyable..we (me, popo, cajun, nini, kimin, adib, khid, haizal, nik and others) were there to witnessed how great the band performed..so impressed just to found out that some other fans..which appeared to be those enthusiast to "underground scene" were also there to give supports..

*the evidence..we're so addicted for more DEWA songs..hehe*

*some of us..cajun,me,popo,adib*

*it's tiring..after 3 hours singing n jumping*

*me,nini's fren,nini,popo,haizal..in front of performing stage*

*it's a memorable nite*

we're looking forward for Peterpan concert..scheduled to held in KL possibly early of August..so, cajun n popo, are you ready for that??

bloody confusing...

2005-06-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

it was a difficult day..my mind non-stop looking for an answer..for those questions being asked to me..somebody looking for an answer from me which honestly me myself not really sure how to response..i don't even know which path i stand at this very moment..i gave an answer which can't even convince myself..i don't even know if it was coming straight from my heart..or just a fake explanation..it made me so confuse..becoming so confuse..just really pity of myself..shame of you, remie!!!!

Selayang Capitol...

2005-06-19T02:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday..while most of my gasingerz frens were having a midnite show (Batman Begins) at GSC midvalley, i was having a different experience..watching "Mr n Mrs Smith" at SELAYANG CAPITOL..with faiz..a.k.a kaoun n his friend. honestly, i never heard bout a place called Selayang Capitol before..unless its Selayang Mall..which i used to pass by the area everytime i visited my friend..Apez..few years back..but Selayang Capitol?? i did scratched my head just to recall or guest where the hell on the Selayang land do claimed it existent..

when my friend called me asking the confirmation for the midnite show..at that time, i wasn 't have any mood to watch movie..actually..but since i thinking about how "sangap" my night time will be without them..i just simply think that watching movie with faiz might be just a simple solution..plus faiz ni dok racun je tengok movie kat Selayang Capitol tu..so i just think that it might be fine to me just to see myself what so "ok" with it..these are some comparison can be made (by me..huh!! others, i dunno) between the 2 GSCs, Mid Valley and Selayang Capitol..

1) Cheap !!!! yeah..what else, this exceptionally should be the prime reason..GSC Mid Valley cost you RM 11 (just raised the price..shit!!) while Slayang Capitol cost you only RM 7. plus..according to Faiz, you could even grab the movie ticket as low as RM 6 on Wednesday and RM 4..(just if u still dare to misused your old student card..)
2) Availability !!! at Mid Valley, if the show scheduled to be just around the corner..you might find yourself stucked in the 1000 km queue..with everyone just fighting for a movie tickets..at Selayang Capitol..your presence is more like a red-carpet celebrity..the staffs are so nice and friendly..even..if the movie has started for 10 minutes (new movie..i mean)..n you are so desperate to watch it..don't feel weird if you find out that there are still dozens of tickets available for you..(siap bole pilih lagik tmpat duduk..)
3) Sound system!!! Mid-valley..if THX..no doubt aa..and without THX pon can be considerably ok..Selayang Mall..hmm..hard to judge aa..but honestly, no so well la..THX..none!!!..i guess
4) Seat !!! Mid Valley is more comfortable compare to Selayang Capitol. Selayang capitol tu pun satu..kena la bagi seat2 tinggi..cam Recaro tu.."sebab" nampak !!!
5) Crowd !!! Selayang Capitol..those crowd eat "kuaci" during Mr & Mrs Smith show..aku ingat makan kuaci just tgk cite P ramlee je..
6) other than that..i think comparatively..balance aa..

so..Faiz..i think my judgement is parallel to my prediction la..but to me..it's still ok la considering the ticket price..kalo hujung bulan tu takde duit..bole la jenguk2 cite apa kat Selayang Capitol tu..but..i think i have no problem to watch movie there again in the future..just to be frank..huh..

cherating photos..

2005-06-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

previously, i wrote bout my trip to cherating..i intended to attach photos..but it was delayed due to some problems..

***cherating view***

***chalet***

***cool..huh..***

***first time menyiang sotong..heavenly***

***siang sotong pun siang la...***

***act like i know all bout the kitchen stuff..but actually..gals!!..i know none***

***play time***

***we won it..cheers!!***

***the losers..but looks like it's really ok to them***

***breakfast***

***my team..win,lose or draw***

***prepare for BBQ***

***BBQ time***

***she's cute..isn't she***

***last pose***

***still not end yet..more pose!!***

***all of us***

so...that's it..millions more in my collection...the trips was great..and those guys and gals are really great...it's was really a memorable one...adios...

Cheers!! Mandom dude..at last..we did it

2005-06-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

this evening, me and mandom did a "gotong-royong" which was coordinated by tippie..since tippie keep on non-stop telling us that our room tersangat la teruk..it was well enuff to ignite our intention to do a major cleaning..but honestly..bilik tu memang dah tahap membimbangkan pon..silap2 sarang burung pun ada kot..so for me it was successfully done by three of us..here is the cleaning inspection checklist which have been verified and approved by tippie...

1) Sawang...none!!
2) Habuk kat dinding...under control...if somebody telling us that there's still lot of dust kat dinding tu..we could explain that actually tu cuma pasal cat dinding je yg dah lapuk...other that..it's totally ok
3) Habuk kat bawah katil Mandom...berkilat!! takde lagik benda2 yang bole dikategorikan sbg sampah!!!
kalo ade pun..tu mesti ada budak baru buang sbb terlalu dengki tengok bilik kitorang dah bersih..
4) Habuk kat lantai...aku dah mob 2 kali..aku mob skali..tippie membebel kata lantai still melekit bla..bla..bla.. so the second time should satisfy her..i suppose
5) Locker...cam locker pompuan...bersih gile...baju kemeja gantung belah kanan...baju t belah kiri..
6) Bedsheet and blanket...jemur tengah panas..bau still ade aa..mana bole bagi ilang...nanti susah lak nak tdo..pijat??? dah lari kot..
7) Toilet...that part..mandom kena dera ngan tippie..i've no comment...

nak kata bilik kitorang ni dah totally clean...tu mmg agak mengarut la..silap esok..bila dah kelam kabut nak pegi keja..plus balik keja letih nak mampus...bilik ni bole jadi tunggang terbalik balik...it's a men room maa..takde aa nak hias sana-sini...yang penting bole rasa kipas tu skit..bole tdo..dengkur sikit...dah aa..to be honest...i relief that at last me and mandom dah bersihkan bilik ni...(plan dah berbulan2 dah..ari ni baru buat)...thanx to tippie coz sudi coordinate gotong-royong bilik kitorang ni...

that's it..time to doze off...

Super size me...

2005-06-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

i can feel that i'm getting bigger and bigger..straight to the point..it's "buncit"!!..terlalu buncit!!! at first..it's hard to admit..ni pasal affy aa ni..asik cakap aku buncit..ha skang dh betul2 buncit..menci gila..below are some facts that makes me start to realize that i should start do something with my tummy...

1) everyday bersiap nak gi keja..everyday la aku kena tahan nafas bila nak pakai seluar keja..my current pants size??honestly i dunno..48 kot!! shit..when i look at the mirror..i lose..mmg aku dah gemuk..
2) time sembahyang..hmm this is the best part..bila duduk tahyat akhir tu..rasa cam lemak kat pinggang tu berlipat2..tension gila..haa..tu la..dulu kutuk kuman..takleh duduk tahyat akhir la..tu la..ni la..skang..haa..remie!!!..jawab..jawab..
3) after makan..seriously aku rasa perut aku ni takde langsung ruang nak bernafas..kena lak bila tuck-in baju..wuiyoo..combo!! so cam biasa..strategy tarik nafas la the best yang bole buat..
4) one by one people around me start telling me that i looked plumb!! those who are consistently telling me is who else if not my sister..than affy..once dulu elyas (time main basket)..nina (my collegue..tu yang straight go for a night jog!!!)..kak ina..my lovely sister-in-law..she even shocked of my new "size"..ala..yang lain pun sama la..
5) and recently when i looked at those photos yang ada muka aku..TETT!!! its true..dah gemuk..even worst than i can imagine...

so..camna aa..nak jogging..malas gila..tu pun harap main basket every wednesday..other than that..NONE..those fellas at gasingerzz have started with their weight control regime..mandom..popo..kuman (takyah cakap aa..)..capeng..my night jog dah stop for quite sometimes..rasanya bole kurus ngan sendiri tak??? cam everytime makan tu baca bismillah..then makan slow2..pas tu perut directly jadi kempis..

just now just celebrated tippie, g-bum and pullah besday at pizza hut bangsar..and just baru tadi..i watched the "Cherating da movie" CD..brilliant workmanship from hafiz..best gila..banyak gak gambar budak tu..it's not her aa popo..but the other one..nothin special..just that really love to see her face..other than that..takde apa2 pun..

mandom just doze off..so it's time for me to pull my blanket..to hug my bantal "busuk" and say goodbye..

Blue..Wednesday..

2005-06-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

my 2 days leave at last come to the end..aa..malas gile nak keja esok ni..malas nak bangun pagi..malas nak redah jam..malas nak masuk office..malas nak bukak drawing..malas nak pegi meeting..sume aa malas..rasa nak guling2 je kat tilam for the entire day..cis..

i'm sure melambak2 keja tengah menunggu untuk esok ni..it's like tertera kat pintu masuk office JUBM tu.."Welcome Back Remie"..n beside the entrance door..Jeffrey (my superior) tengah pegang berpuluh2 file untuk bagi kat aku..huh..horror siot..damn..

so today i had completed my 2 days PTD exam..nampak cam tak lepas lagi ni..just now exam comprehension and essay (BM + english)..it has been quite sometimes since the last time i wrote an essay..so pening gila bila nak start first paragraph tu..so as expected..it ended with essay yang maybe aku sendiri tak paham..ayat2 suma belit2..idea banyak..tapi nak tulis punya la susah siot..the interesting part is..the gal next table (macam the girl next door jugak la..) is Suria a.k.a "sunshine"..lama sial tak jumpa minah ni..at first bila aku jumpa masa first day exam..terperanjat jugak..cause i thought she's still in UK..bila tunduk tengok celah kelangkang..yes..really her..so we spent most of the time during exam together (marah affy kalo baca ni..)..but i never try to dig any sensation stories from her..just borak2 kosong je..pasal keja..pasal exam tu..pasal ex-classmate kat banting..n bla..bla..cis..rasa nyesal lak..tp takpe spy kat gasing tu pun dah cukup banyak untuk sebarkan gossip2 hangat ni..

it's already 1.30 in the morning..penat main basket tadi pun tak abis lagi..penat gila siot..aku cam biasa..kalo tak kena jaga KAT tu..kena la jaga TASYA..under estimate aku..huh..nasib baik aku rendah "sikit"..kalo tak dah lama je slam dunk..takde halnye..tapi best gak jaga KAT tu..takyah aa nak lari banyak2..tadi main berapa set pun tak ingat..non-stop..rasa nak pengsan pun ada..esok pulak keja..huh best..combo..

hopefully..esok..suma baik-baik aje (cam lahu DEWA tu..)..just can't wait this coming weekend...

my HIGH and LOW...

2005-06-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

Last weekend, me and other gasingerz went to PD..as usual..walaupun PD tu tak best..tp kalo dah muka2 yang pegi tu sume muka2 yg tak pernah stop buat lawak..amat best la jugak akhirnya. tp yg tak bestnya..actually that day..one of my collegue invited me to her house for a lunch..budak2 lain pun ada gak..so yang tak bestnye..before tu on friday..i didn't even give any indication yg aku nak pegi ke tak pegi dalam memo..(which at first i thought the PD trip is on Saturday which obviously aku mmg takleh pegi pun..which only they change the plan to postpone it to Sunday). so my collegues thought aku akan datangla..so here is the consequences..

the day aku kt PD (petang), i sent sms to them mentioning that i failed to attend. i said i feel so sorry to not
announce it earlier (bcs it happens to my other collegue b4..cancelled utk pegi cherating at last minute..n akibatnya..budak2 sume pulaukan dia..padahal dia tu demam..x paham betul aku ni..). so i was afraid the similar thing will happen to me..n i pretty sure it's really happen to me..on Monday..when none of them rasa murah ati nak tegur aku..sume cam sejuk je..except those yg mmg tak dijemput tuk pegi..aku pun lalala..mampus aaa..aku buat dek je..tak nak tegur dah..aku buat hal sendiri jela..i still remember masa mula2 aku masuk company baru ni..some of them cakap yg aku ni sombong sikit..selalu mengelak bila time ada "aktiviti" diorang nak buat..dah tu sebab aku "banyak" benda nak borak2 ngan korang tu..aku buat "lawak" sorang pun tak paham..tension gile..so the best thing aku suka buat hal sendiri je..but semenjak cherating trip tu..aku rasa aku dah sacrifice a lot of things..petang2, lepas keja aku minum kt Restoran Padang Kota tu daripada terus balik gasing..aku join main futsal..tournament..lately pun join main futsal kat Footy SS24 tu..n few other things yang malas gile aku nak explain kt sini..so if just bcs of the stupid thing happened on sunday tu yang buat diorang nak pulaukan aku..i'm so dissapointed with them..it's looks so cheap when comes to the part you guys easily jump to the conclusion to hate me..so cam biasa..for me..FUCK IT..aku tak kisah pun..

luckily, today and tomorrow i took leave just for the sake of taking PTD exam (eventhough cuti aku "banyak!!!")..parents aku gile berharap la..so nevermind la..and accidentally..pusat ujian tu just nearby my ex house..at first nak gak bagitau..tp bila pikir2 balik..i decide to just keep it silent..we're still friend..tak taula apsal aku nak jugak kawan ngan dia ni..it's hard to explain actually..but for the time being..i think both of us feel convenient ngan relationship camni..(ceh..bosan gile tulis pasal benda ni..). back to cite asal tadi..since that these 2 days aku cuti..so i really hope when i come back to work on thursday..everyting comes back to normal..

maybe the things happen on monday tu kebetulan je (or aku je yg terasa lebih2..). but..thruthfully i still enjoy for having their companionship..

tapi at the end of the day, nothin can beat my Gasingerz fren..u guys are always great..

nuff said..

goodbye precious...

2005-05-24T01:50:00.000+08:00

some people may have some kind of vision..
like something bad is going to be happen..
it's happen to me..
my car was intruded by somebody
my beloved cd player..has been stolen just like that..
my car suffer severe damages..
i killed him if i had a chance..
the best part is..
i took out the player header every single night..
for the past 2 weeks..
just feel bad like something going to be happen..
except last night..
god knows how i feel at this very moment..
just pretend everything is ok..
everyhting will be fine..hopefully..

cherating trip..

2005-05-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

sometimes i do feel proud of myself in the sense of still able to abide the tense of working load i had been carrying for these past few months. it's so relief to think that one more job has been completed and submitted today. it was an extra job, actually..which illegally been done..and it costs me 4 days full of tiring and restlessness..i am expecting a good pay for that since i even promised to pay arab 50 bucks just to assist me with some minor calculation works..thanks god..it's finally over..n certainly i will think twice to endure doing the same thing if the pay is so so..not even afford to pay back the many hours of time i skipped just to complete it..

actually, i still abide the strenuous of cherating trip which calculatively have been over for about 4 days. i was thinking about instantly write bout the memorable trips as soon as i reached kl. but however, the job that i mentioned above adversely cutted short the excitement and kept delaying me..

yeah..now is a good time to put in my entry..in general, the trip was simple but still full of enjoyment. talking bout just 100 bucks for a vacation like that nowadays is bargain, i suppose..everythings being covered..petrol..accomodation..meals..bbq..activities..n the most important thing to me that the trip was held at cherating..that supposed to be the prime reason..i love beach as much as i love cigarrete..hehe..i love beach a lot..the scenary turns me on more that any other places..cherating is not the best but it is still the lovely place to be visited..we were renting few chalets namely "Tanjung Inn Villa"..a village feel-alike..really quite and dark during night time..and i easily can feel the smooth wind from the sea as the area is just adjacent to the beach..at least i could spent those little times to temporarily ignoring the shitty things running in my head and unpleasant feelings that haunted me..i could put aside myself temporarily from the tense feelings..tiring..and whatsoever..

the reason no.2..of course i took that oppportunity to know better bout my collegues..they are absolutely exciting..similarly to those of my frenz at gasingerz..the jokes..the laughs..the crazy things..that makes the trips more meaningful..i spotted some of them which appeared to be so committed in organizing the activities held there..kak june..kak zam..pai..boy..nadwah..bob(just mentioning few names..) especially during bbq nite session..i had more opportunity to know some of them even more better which some of them i had never spoken with or not even realized he/her existent (opps..i pretty sure it's that them who are not recognized bout my existent)..i had a good times with bob, norhan and hafiz (as they are my chalet-mate)..with fendi (as he is my co-driver who could devoted himself to me as much as i needed especially when it comes to the long journey drive)..with kak zam, su, mas n xerox (during the menyiang sotong "session")..einur (team 2gether during win, lose n draw 2gether with su, kak zam and fifi)..enot, nina, nora, boy n others (we win the beach contest..remember?)..with fuad n the rest of my chalet-mate(nite time chit chat..laughing..dirty jokes..storytelling..at our chalet balcony)..it looks like each one of us are gelled quite well..we had games together..n with the like bob..boy..pai..n the gangs were "participating"..the mood seems to be heavenly..

during nite time, we had beach bbq dinner..apparently in the dark..(unusual but it's romantic what??hehe) ..the meals are perfectly well to suit my appetite (as during that time i felt so exhausted n hungry)..and later carried on with an exchange gift session with my cute little japanese brand made comb being handed to xerox..hehe..hope she's ok with that..me myself get a teddy and photo frame from mas..thanks a lot.."ko untung besar la mi", one of the jokes from norhan considering the value of the gift i gave versus the gift that i received..that didn't concerned me much..honestly..just unlucky with kaoun a.k.a faiz..hehe..u seems always get a bad luck, i suppose..but still feel sorry for him..especially when he was left alone without any gift (tension gile mamat tu..his red ears tells a lot of his feeling..hehe)..

sunday was a free session activity..after taking a brief breakfast (nasi dagang..yummy..yummy)..i took the opportunity for a brief walk along the beach..alone..snap some pictures..heavenly..sometimes i wish that i was born in kampung..near a beautiful beach..had a peaceable life..everything seems to be slow-moving..it's like i have more time to enjoy each of every seconds of my life..(ceh..it's sound poyo lak..)..

in the afternoon..everything had been settled up to hand over the chalet keys..it's another long journey back to KL..damn..the holiday seems running so fast..on the way back..we even stopped by at kuantan to have our lunch.."benteng"..it's the name for the place..i heard from my friends..the place located just nearby teruntum complex..(i had been there once before..when i was in form 4..if i'm not mistaken). the extra money from the vacation budget even could be used to pay our lunch..(like i said..cuti2 malaysia ni gile murah la..)..like usual..after lunch..lepak2 jap..gelak2..n around 5 o'clock..we left kuantan..heading back to KL..

we reached KL around 10 o'clock..n i had been told that boy's car stucked at highway..over-temperature..at that time i had already starving like hell..n like usual i called popo n been told that everybody at gasing had took their dinner..so i had dinner with bob, norhan, fendi, hafiz, einur :p , mas and ..... (can't remember her name). i paid the bills (am i out of my mind!!!)..actually there was still extra money left..so it's ok la..

around 11.30 o'clock..i reached gasing..felt so tired but simultenously rasa tersangat puas..it has been a long time since my last vacation (tu pun company trip kt taman negara).. so that night i took early sleep..n fantasizing all the great and excitement i had experienced during the short holiday..especially those memories that i would never forget..its a wonderful thing to had such an amazing collegues..to have them around me..at least helps me to think that working environment is still enjoyable..

weekend trip..

2005-05-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

so tired..tonite..i'm goin to cherating..lalala..with my collegues..so tired..still have to drive..hopes i will be more fresh n energetic..so excited..even i had to cancelled my movie session with my frens tonite..really appreciate those my frens..who willing to lend me some of their stuffs..courtesy to capeng..ur lumix..man..ur so kind dude..if it's mine..i'll never let u loan it from me..(just kidding)..i behaved myself for this entire week..i do feel u agree with me..that's the deal..n havin ur lumix should be the reward, isn't it..perhaps..i will keep trying to behave myself,ok..popo..the godfather of all kindness to me..pretend like ur snowcap is mine..hehe..tak tau aa..skang ni suka sgt pakai snowcap popo tu..n his luggage.. i'm not good in doing preparation for a trip..x taula camne nanti kalo slalu out-station..manjang kelam kabut..last minute preparation..that is the must!!..but..for tonite..i think everytin is ready..hehe..so..now..just wanna take a short nap..short rest..bcoz i badly need it rite now..

Rivalry vs Arrogance

2005-05-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

it's already 2.30 in the morning but i am still here..in front of my computer..just wasting my time..waitin for a live football telecast..chelsea vs liverpool..sounds boring (unless ___vs MU) but i just can't waste this opportunity to watch the disappointment on Jose Mourinho face after his team being demolished by liverpool..(wishfully :p)..hah damn it..MU could not survive until this stage..but honestly..currently..it seems look like chelsea is unbeatable..not because of the strong team they had..but for me they are more balanced team and everybody in the team are efficient as a team player..petr cech will not be that good without his highly-spirited captain in front of him..in front of the back four..stands their long lists of creative midfielders with each of them are accomplished with the much-needed modern football type of play..excellent box-to-box midfielder..flair..creative..and able to score..(esp that bloody lampard..)..n in front of those makelele, lampard, joe cole, duff and arjen robben, stands eidur which his role is more like ruud van..just hold the ball..n of course grab any damn opportunities in front of the goal..

2 years back..chelsea can sometimes be like spurs..sometimes can be like norwich n even sometimes can be like arsenal..but this year they are really them..highly-spirited team with magnificient desire..their last premier league triump is back on 1955..other than that..there are few other trophies which they had won..FA cup..league cup and intercontinental cup..if i not mistaken la..not much glory during their old days..with not so many legendary names to be remember..n yup..they got only gianfranco zola in the memorable list...(the legendary player..but still playing for his old club in italy..)..but this year, it looks like they wanna created legendary players for their club more than any other club in the world..what they have to do is just cash in the russion billionaire money..its only who?? they can even buy thousands of shevchenko..n thousands of ronaldinho just to keep them on the bench..

n MU..for me, this year is just another dissappointed season with the third placing in the league look set to be inevitable. everything seems wrong right from the start of the season..with the player like rooney..ruud van (this guy injured panjang la pulak)..alan smith n saha..none of them could consistently deliver a vital goal..seri..seri..bengang betul laa aku ni..the midfielders are even worst..

that doesn't means to me anymore..chelsea lose..yeah that's means a lot to me for the time being..at least..i don't think they are yet ready to be the most hatred club in england..with thousands of glories just to be envious by any other clubs..not yet..yeah not yet...

seronotnye..

2005-05-02T12:31:00.000+08:00

heaven..3 days holiday. no cost estimate..no contract evaluation..no VO evaluation..no tender drawings to be analysed..no meeting..no formal office attire..no formal english conversation with my boss..no early morning shower..no tuition..it's absolutely feel like live in heaven..ohh best nye..it's really a much needed refreshment..

so what i've been doin' for these past 2 days? seronok sakan..it started with karaoke session with my frenz..friday night. malay songs..yeah..just sharpened our talents..malay songs tu..wings, search, lefthanded, black dog bones (??), tah ape2 lagik. it's like..bila time pilih lagu tu..everybody just like..wei lagu apa pilih nih..tak nah dengar pun..but when one of us dah start nyanyi..time tu jgn sebut la..lompat2 atas sofa pun ada..everybody was excited..popo..mandom..apai..stone..abg kent..kali (membe stone yg bersuara merdu)..koyan(??)..capeng..yup mmg best..suara best ke tak best..itu belakang kira..yg penting seronok.

saturday..bagun gile lambat..then my dad called me asked me to go back. ingat nak balik gak..then suddenly terfikir nak service keta coz next week me n my collegues are planing to go to cherating..(too bad..they asked me to drive..sucks)..so my dad was like..ok..tp tangguh nye tangguh kut 5 lebih baru gi service keta. tu pun atas dasar courtesy abg mechanic tu..coz he said that day keta tuk service terlalu banyak..pas tu aku antar keta pun dah lewat..padahal the whole day pun aku bukan buat ape..guling2 je kan tilam tu..tgk scrubs..tido..pas tu bangun balik.. guling2 n tdo..sampai kul 4. luckily, abg tu baik n still willing take my car..
settle satu masalah aku..

saturday nite..futsal! yeah long time never play futsal..tu pun kalo tak dipaksa oleh joe..malas gak nak main..joe..jamy..man toik..reza..mandom..sim..capeng..cajun..adik capeng..elyas..sume org score especially mandom..aku sorang je tak score..ciss..camne nak score..sume org nk marked aku..(ceh..alasan)

sunday morning..early morning my mom already called me..asked me to go back..my parents want me to bring them to kenduri kawin. padahal aku dh janji ngan cajun nk gi show peterpan kt planet hollywood. i was like..camne aa. so at last i decide to cancelled je tgk peterpan tu..then cajun called me if i wanna watch dewa concert at kl tower..limited entry..RM50..see..something happen for a reason rite..aku rasa aku lg go for dewa than peterpan (aku just tau satu lagu je peterpan tu)..aahh..lepas pening2 jap..lepas called popo asking for our schedule..takut clashed ngan mende lain..green light..my answer is YES..then melayang la RM50 aku tu..

sunday nite..i had gathering with my ex-schoolmates. thanx to irfan for his effort..kalo tak krn dia..susah gile nk kumpulkan budak2 ni. ramai gak yg datang..muka2 biasa cam elyas..apez..zahir..tu slalu jumpa..but yg gila jarang jumpa cam madcap..limi..za'ba..nik..orges..bolah..tu yg buat aku teruja nak gi gak tu. the gathering took place at syed restaurant at bangsar. actually the purpose of the gathering is just that irfan nk pass kad kahwin dia..but cam biasa..bila dah jumpa sume (plus dgn kewujudan apez ngan zahir)..event dia straight jadi medan gelak ketawa..kutuk mengutuk..hahaha best gile..the stories are keep repeating everytime we met..but we never feel bored..we still laughing for the same jokes..but who cares..yg penting seronok..really missed all my frenz..so..bila dah dpt peluang utk gathering camni..tu yg smpi tak ingat diri bila dah gelak ketawa tu..sedar tak sedar..sampai kul 2.30 pg (plus lampu syed 2 kali tutup bukak..cam nak halau kitorang)..baru kitorang bersurai..

this morning..kul 7.30 dh terjaga..jeezz monday..then bila teringat balik ari ni cuti..automatic tarik balik selimut..sapu skit air liur kat mulut..n sambung tdo balik..yess best2. at last, it already comes to today which is the last day of my 3 days holiday saga..buhsan gile..really wish i could stop the time..lepas tu dah puas gile seronok2 baru bagi masa tu jalan balik..now i just have another 17 hours untuk berseronok2. so i don't think i wanna waste it just by sitting in front of this computer for the rest of my day..huh..nk kuar la..ciow..

2005-04-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

she's so gorgeous...

You What???

2005-04-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

last night i did something that i never even think about doing it for the rest of my life..."NIGHT JOG"..ceh..macam la gempak sangat..padahal biasa je. but its cool..to me at least. yesterday, cam biasa malas aa nk tulis pasal benda ni lagi..stressed pasal keja. i going back home a little bit a early..sampai umah lebih kurang kul 9. then suddenly, this crazy idea just crossed my mind. at first, i was thinking about having a night jog at tasik TTDI. but suddenly, when i reached gasing..i met stone..hehe..really love to make jokes with this fella!!! n stone gave me a brilliant suggestion..tasik taman jaya..jeezz..why i never think bout it..so i was just straight rushing to my room..change my dress n rushing to tasik taman jaya..tak nak aa terserempak ngan budak2 gasing..nnti diorang ingat aku ni gila lak..so sampai je tasik taman jaya..straight jogging. there's so many couples tenet..cis..xde keja aa diorang ni..buat projek pun ada jugak..

jogging nyer jogging..x sedar dah 2 round. cehh..cam banyak nye..tp aku bangga gak jogging 2 round tanpa henti dalam keadaan stressed ni. siap pumping lagik..tu yang berketul perut ngan bisep aku ni..its really relaxing my mind..rasa cam sume masalah terbang cam tu jer..

i am thinking bout doing it again..maybe regularly..hopefully.. di samping main basket tiap2 rabu..

dah aa..

jewel..it's always be my fav song..

2005-04-23T12:51:00.000+08:00

....................................................
well i've been down for so long
oh it can be longer still
and i've been down for so long
that the end must be drawing near
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shit..
i really hate myself when i feel so down..
just kinda try to ingore all the damn things happen around me..
each days praying so that the bad dreams..
will never ever haunting me again..
it will be the time for me to smile..
just pretending that there are only butterflies in my mind..
and angels will forever here..
so that the smile will perpetual..
for the rest of my life..

life is hard sometimes....

2005-04-21T11:38:00.000+08:00

today i woke up early..as it is not a usual thing i did especially on holiday. even during week days, i woke up late..7.45 am and find myself having a very limited time to take bath..grooming.. and so on. every time i woke up late, i always feel sorry for myself..apsal la aku tak terus je bangun masa kul 7 tadi..tak pun masa kul 7.15 tadi, tak pun kul 7.30 td..when everytime i suddenly terbangun, its ending with i continuing with my sleep..eventually, bangun pagi ari ni pun coz malam td masuk tdo ultimately awal..10 am..n tu pun pasal x sihat..demam..selesema..batuk..u name it. it's the whole package bila u start feeling that u dah demam..

yesterday, was really a busy day..eventhough tgh demam ni..so many urgent things to be cleared off. 2 projects done..n 2 new projects coming in. aiyya..just for my record..there are 10 projects in my project folder. that's why when the doctor asked me if wanna take a medical leave..spontaneously, i just said.."No, thank you!" God ! how could i said that..when everybody is always taking the advantages to take medical leave even when they were just having a small,unserious tiny first cough (tu pun just pasal banyak sgt isap rokok)..not so damned serious ha..i was the only stupid dumb guy who are ignoring to having it. people would think that i am workaholic (is it the correct spelling!)..am i ??..but i think the most suitable word is RESPONSIBILITY..yeah..i think that the corect n the most suitable word. poyo gile..but it's the truth of me.. what to do..

n recently i just watched "SEPET"..hmm kinda late to talk bout this movie..i guess. but mampus la! don't wanna talk bout the whole chapter of the movie la..i just wanna focus on this Sharifah Armani..she's gorgeous! n man..she's so cute..she's simple..she's spontanous..n the most important thing is that i really find that she is attractive when she speaks..that's not yet the whole things bout her..just that her character in the movie really makes me love her..with the baju kurung n sport shoes..really cute. it's always be the best scene in the movie (for me la..) when she argued with her best friend's bf ..ala pasal mat salleh celup tu (she said, " muka cam mat salleh, tapi cakap mat salleh pun tak pass" )..she just showing how cool she is when somebody wanna pissed her off. bout the whole movie..it is still a typical type of loving story which just that it had been presented in a different way. malay movie can't runaway with this boring topic. but with armani n the gangs (can't remember "Jason" real name..incl harith iskandar, ida nerina, etc) showing a really superb performances, i don't feel awkward how people like stone..popo..kuman..n others were dying to watch this movie.. that husband n wife scene (harith n ida)..hmm..yummy..yummy...

n recently..i watched "SCRUBS" a lot..marathon..maybe..one episode to another. thats why i don't wanna teach myself to commit with tv series. bcs i becoming so obssessed..not bcs i wanna duplicating other people interests. i love to watch but i don't wanna sell my commitment. i hate commitment..for god sakes! thats why i am more like movie addicts instead of tv series die hard fans. after i watched movie..n then that's it. after just a minor discussion..just 2 or 3 days non-stop fantasizing the heroin..just 2 or 3 days adoring the whole storytellings..n that's it. like tv series..it's require commitment. it makes u keep on wanna know what goin to happen next..n next..n next. that's what happen to Jeg..i guess..hehe..so emotional..love to watch his reaction when the gasingerzz sat 2gether n watched "Survivors" or "Amazing Race" and so on..

n bout the "SCRUBS" thing, bcs there's so many humors being slotted in the story..sometimes it's change my perception of the career being a doctor..for me doctor is boring..n boring career is doctor. n furthermore, i hate bloods..n the natural smells of the hospital..the pills..(is there anyone might think that these whole of my feelings make sense) u might hav to spends most of ur life just in the hospital..so hey..what about other happy go lucky stuffs u wanna do esp with ur friend..no life. but eventually..at the end of the day..i believe that every job is boring..regardless if u are an engineer, or a driver, or an actor, or a quantity surveyor (hey that's me), or a lecturer..anything. i still find that i spend most of my times in the office. i still find that i have to go to work on Sunday. i still find that i have to go to work when i am sick..the thing is..it is not the job to be pointed as the culprit..but it is only bcs of ourselves. its just about how we make ourselves love our jobs.. its just bout how wonderful our relationship with our collegues makes us dying to go to the office everyday..its just bout how good of our capabilities to impress our boss..its just bout how comfortable we are when we are facing the tense situation..job burden..i am just trying to think possitively..n not just complaining like a little boy who crying for a sweet words coming from their parents mouth..i believe its not cheap to buy success..its most certainly that it is not a cheap price to buy the whole f**king shits of experience we are facing now which in contrast we will really thankfully to having it when we reached 40s. hey..i am still 25..it is just too young to talk bout the whole shit of a frustrated life...again.. just think positively..i guess..

i am the one who draw the picture of my life..and i am the one who will put the beautiful colour on it and l when i am 60s probably..70s hopefully..80s wishfully..or 90s..my god, how long do i wish to live??? i will sit on a lazy chair showing the collection of my picture of life to the dozens of my grandchild, dozen of children (???), dozen of wife (probably not!!) n we all smile n they really proud of me of being such a really wonderful artist..wishfully..patheticly..end of the chapter of my boring topics.............................................................

me, my car and my life

2005-03-05T02:06:00.000+08:00

Me..always feel too tired lately. taking a short nap after long-hard working day is a much-loved and presedence thing at the moment. if i wanna mentioned the list of out-of-work activities i've done for this entire week..NONE! as an embellishment to my list, accompanying popo n chi to OU last Tuesday is most probably my sole out-of-work activity. i'm rather confined myself in my room..with a headphone comfortably rest at both of my ears n anxiously looking for my merry-go-round dreams..(sometimes..with my working outfit still intact with me)..doze off n by the time i find myself awake at the middle of the night, it is pretty hard for me to resume the same stirring lay-off.....

Why..my car accident maybe the culprit to my entire destructive week. unless, my dad is some sort like the owner of mercedez benz , maybe there's nothin i should worry about. buying a new car most probably my top option. among tons of car brand hit the pj road everyday..merc is my target..absolutely a perfect choice though. it was like OMG, ok..i'm totally broke. consequently, what else do you expect? when this thing happen, it's always be a long hard+boring day, busy myself with all the silly police report..long negotiation with the chineze..n at the end of the day, sent my car to my friend workshop at kg baru. thanx god, there's popo to help me. if not..maybe i was just huh lantak aa..

Aftermath, i find myself left with too limited option..nak gi keja camne aa? later, my boss asked me to do ot, camne nak balik aa? my tuition on thursday night, camne aa? my appoinment with sabrina, camne aa? tomorrow seminar, camne aa? if my parents know bout it, camne aa? my insurance ncb, camne aa? i wanna settle my very own stuff, credit card, phone bills, cash draw, bla2, camne aa?

Saviour.. it's always the beauty of friendship means a lot to me. wan..yeah it's a name of my friend who come towards to help me. whatever people wanna say bout him, (even in some juncture i was also in that side.. because the talks are true though :p ) i really relief that he helps me. even, this evening tippie swing by and fetched me back home coz wan can't make it..(betul ke ? none of my business la..). and for tomorrow, i will riding popo's scoot to office.

i do feel really uncomfortable with all this things (esp when it comes to the part i have to rely to somebody else..menci aa), some more, i hate when my daily routine suddenly being interrupted. daily, i woke 7.30 in the morning (now 7.00 am), take a glass of water n straight away jump into shower (now kejutkan wan is my priority), grooming (now where got time, by the time i'm out from the bathrm, wan is already waitin me at living room..so fast ha), normally the 1st thing i did after i ignited my car engine, is switched on my cd player (now, still doing the same thing though, but it's wan's radio player), then of course enjoyin my early morning drive n try to build up my mood (now, just keep quite n barely enjoy myself with the vroom..vroom sound comin from wan's head-size exhaust piping system), most of the time, durin lunch hour i used to bring along my frien (now, finally i thanx god the restaurant padang kota is here to serve my appetite, if not i rather buy my lunch somewhere else..), at 4.30 p.m i started to feel so excited..try to finished up my works..n prepare to go back+few ot hours to make my boss pleased w me (now, busy make a phone call to get somebody to fetch me), between 6.30 to 7.00 pm, i usually enjoy listening to radio and probably looking for something to eat for my dinner (now, what else, lepas keja..balik). So to complete the unhappy+boredom of my daily life cycle, taking a short nap is like a boom..wonderful boring ending.

durind this 2 weeks time, this is totally without a doubt, my best life-cycle i could have...hmm. after 3 days, i becoming used to it, at least make me realize how important to appreciate of having own car in my daily life. people learns from mistakes, rite? so at this stage, certainly i find myself the most motivated person to learn from mistakes...

visionary act..PrOLoGue..

2005-03-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

since i was a kid..i had wrote quite a number of journals which unfortunately no longer in my collection (except the black book which i kept in my office). it started when i was in standard 2 and during the time i was having a super duper problems in improving my english. my english teacher was always encouraging me to write journal.."to improve my english", she said but the fact is, i was never good in english. i knew lotz of people around me which i really admire their english speaking/writing. i even sometimes thought these bunch of people were starting practicing their english since they were in their mum's tummy..no wonder they were better than me..but when i started to realize that my assumption was wrong..i just admit that i've done too little to improve my english.. :p

lately, i spent portion of my times reading my friend's blog..started with keng's, affy's, stone's and popo's. although, i heard bout this thing..(blog..which when i heard first, i thought block!!) few months before, but i never put my effort to know what the hell is this thing about. Some of them are totally expressed their feelings while some are expediently put all their brilliant thoughts in their writing. it's enjoying but how far all the writings are shun from openly being discussed..that hamper my first thought to write in this blog.

all my secrets are kept well in my journal. i wrote anything that crossing my mind..the things that i like, the one who i love, the one who i really pleased to get along, the one who i really hate, people habits that annoying me, my wisdom of other people, the things that i did, the things that i watch, the things that i heard, the people that i met, the movie that i watch, the type of man who i wish to be, the things that people dunno bout me, the list of wish which some of them are completely ludicrous..because for me who cares??i write whatever dare to cross my mind. because i always think that journal is the best way to expressed myself..confidentiality and undisclosed.

although i never mean to change my perception bout my concept of journal, i still find it is interesting to expressed myself in a different way especially by writing in my blog. nevertheless, its up to anyone to response (..maybe by the time somebody start to realize about the existent of my blog..hehe) and give comments since everybody have their very own point of view..i haven't come across people who have none..

visionary act is my brand new journal n hopefully there is always time for me to treasure it akin to what i've been doing for all these past years....