memories..shut down..
today..huh..it's a so fucking boredom!! huh..*relief*..i dunno..it's like nothing such as nice and beautiful dreams nesting in my mind..i have nothin interestin to do..no interestin person to meet..no money to spend.. no companion to dig an old-time jokes..no gasingerz for only-we-know-what-the-jokes-is-all-about..aahhh.. it should have been a very nice weekend, i suppose..but i can' t feel the xcitement anymore...
there's someone who i really..really..really..wanna meet and chat when it comes to this very pathetic moment..someone who i honoured as my very special friend..once i so deadly missed the whole day and nite..the one who i find so meaningful in my eyes..who can makes me so happy for thousand years..
honestly, i dunno what inside her makes me so crazy about..we find out that we're never clique..we hates in each other in some ways..we so incredibly akin to each other in some 'ways'..we hardly meet..we hardly contact each other..we prefer to keep our mouth shut when everytime we hang out together..once we admit that we rarely being ourself when comes to relationships..sometimes we prefer to view things in hard ways..we hardly admit mistakes..
those obstacles still couldn't slam my intention from admiring her as a very special friend..prudently, i don't think of anyway we'll be as close as before..she might even already have someone even more special at a first place..well, i am still believe all the things happen for a good reason..and to make a further steps for serious relationship as before maybe not be a prudent decision..
as much as i really missed her..i do also feel much wiser if i just let her go freely..freely out of my mind..though, hoping there's someone who is better in holding the responsibilities to make her happy.. it's ok to be just a friend like this..
just a piece of pathetics mull in the middle of the boring day....
there's someone who i really..really..really..wanna meet and chat when it comes to this very pathetic moment..someone who i honoured as my very special friend..once i so deadly missed the whole day and nite..the one who i find so meaningful in my eyes..who can makes me so happy for thousand years..
honestly, i dunno what inside her makes me so crazy about..we find out that we're never clique..we hates in each other in some ways..we so incredibly akin to each other in some 'ways'..we hardly meet..we hardly contact each other..we prefer to keep our mouth shut when everytime we hang out together..once we admit that we rarely being ourself when comes to relationships..sometimes we prefer to view things in hard ways..we hardly admit mistakes..
those obstacles still couldn't slam my intention from admiring her as a very special friend..prudently, i don't think of anyway we'll be as close as before..she might even already have someone even more special at a first place..well, i am still believe all the things happen for a good reason..and to make a further steps for serious relationship as before maybe not be a prudent decision..
as much as i really missed her..i do also feel much wiser if i just let her go freely..freely out of my mind..though, hoping there's someone who is better in holding the responsibilities to make her happy.. it's ok to be just a friend like this..
just a piece of pathetics mull in the middle of the boring day....
